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Half of It Was Never Yours

The Seam in the Water

The Voice That Came Out Was Not Yours

Heard a voice come out of their own mouth that they did not choose.

The Half-Second Before the Congratulations

The Cue You Have Performed Since You Were Seven

The Four Rak'ah You Were Not Present For

The Four Bites Nobody at the Table Wanted

Nobody serves the last four bites because anybody wanted them. They are simply still there, with the plate nearly clear.

Half Your Usual Force

The Prophet صلى الله عليه وسلم watched a wild camel losing an argument, and named a law about everything we touch.

Most of the Mountain Is Underground

Geologists put six sevenths of a range below the plains. The ridgeline is the small share.

Her Name on the Screen for the Third Time Today

Nothing is wrong. She wants to know whether we ate. Listen to what leaves the chest before the thumb moves.

The Fight Has Been So Long We Forgot What Quiet Feels Like

We have years of vocabulary for losing and none at all for the quiet that comes after.

Istighfar in Islam: The Running Tab You Never Clear

No incident to point at, still a film over the afternoon. There is a practice with a number attached to it.

The Second Week After You Get It

Fifty years of research on why arrival keeps its distance.

The Jar That Got Used Once

Prophetic medicine filed under folklore, or the failure filed under ourselves. Both end with the same jar in the same cupboard.

Ghusl Before Jumu'ah: For Anyone Who Arrives Still Wearing the Week

A full wash, a cleaned mouth, the better clothes. Twenty minutes, and the hour lands differently.

The Warning No One Thanked You For

Count one today. It takes nine seconds, and it is the only record of it there is.

Three Days of Being Polite in the Same House

The salt gets passed before it is asked for, with a courtesy nobody in this family has ever used on each other.

The Voice That Speaks After the Phone Goes Face Down

It arrives with no interest in whether we already turned to Him, or how sincerely we did it.

Muhasabah in Islam: You Review Your Day and Nothing Ever Changes

The scan on the drive home, the wince at the sink. A year of it, and the same three things are still on the list.

The Ninth Time You Replay It

It has all the ingredients of accountability and almost none of the results.

You Are Not More Sinful at 1am. You Are More Tired.

The temptation did not change between 10am and midnight. The brake did.

The First Enemy the Khutbah Names Is Not Shaytan

Before Shaytan. Before enemies. The self is named first.

The Animal That Only Grazes

There is no moment between its wanting and its eating. Yours has one.

The Tone You Would Never Use on a Stranger

Ninety seconds at the doorway decides most of the evening.

An-Nafs al-Ammarah: How to Recognise the Self That Gives Orders

Not temptation. Instructions, in your own voice.